Happy New Year my darling Mamie. I've missed you so much over Christmas, and I'm missing you desperately tonight - we always used to speak on New Year's Eve - I remember many a drunken phone call wishing each other all the best things for the New Year and saying how much we loved each other. I love you just as much as always and I promise that I will spend this coming year being as happy as I can be and making you proud. You are in my heart tonight and for always xxxx